Prince Harry is opening up.
The 36-year-old Duke of Sussex spoke with Oprah about his mental health in an episode of their new docuseries The Me You Can’t See.
Find out what he said inside…
“For me, the thing I remember the most was the sound of the horses’ hooves going along The Mall, the red brick road,” Harry said. “By this point, both of us were in shock. It was like I was outside of my body and just walking along doing what was expected of me, showing one-tenth of the emotion that everybody else was showing.”
Harry added that he was angry about what happened to his mother and “the fact that there was no justice at all.”
“Nothing came from that,” he explained. “The same people that chased her into the tunnel photographed her dying on the backseat of that car.”
He shared that he didn’t talk about his mother or his feelings about her death, but inside he was “all over the place mentally” and that as he got older, he experienced anxiety before attending royal events.
“Before I even left the house, I was pouring with sweat and my heart raced. I was in a fight-or-flight mode,” Harry said during the episode. “Panic attacks, severe anxiety. And from 28 to probably 32 was a nightmare time in my life.”
“I would just start sweating,” he continued. “I would feel as though my body temperature was two or three degrees warmer than everybody else in the room. I would convince myself that my face was bright red, and therefore, everybody could see how I was feeling but no one would know why. So, it was embarrassing. You get in your head about it. And then you’re just like, ‘Everybody is looking at me.’ One bead of sweat feels like the whole face is pouring down.”
“Everywhere I go, every single time I meet someone, it’s almost like I’m being drained of this energy. Picking up on other people’s emotion,” he said. “Finally, I’d bump into someone who was sweating more than me, and I would stop, be able to speak to them and then everything would calm down and then I could move on again.”
“I was willing to drink. I was willing to take drugs. I was willing to try and do the things that made me feel less like I was feeling,” he said. “But I slowly became aware that, OK, I wasn’t drinking Monday to Friday, but I would probably drink a week’s worth in one day on a Friday or a Saturday night. And I would find myself drinking not because I was enjoying it, but because I was trying to mask something.”
Recently Harry has started to seek treatment for his anxiety in therapy. “The only way to free yourself and break out,” he said, “is to tell the truth.”
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