Caitlyn Jenner Says She Sees Her Gender Dysphoria As Her 'Gift'

Caitlyn Jenner is opening up about transitioning.

The 70-year-old former Olympian penned an essay for Women’s Health‘s 2020 Pride Month coverage, out now.

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“By the time I was 9 years old, I was struggling with my gender identity. I would sneak into my mother and sister”;s closets when nobody was around to try on their clothes, or go play with their makeup. I had no idea why I was doing it; it just felt right. I also struggled with dyslexia, which was kind of a double-whammy. I was scared to go to school and be asked to read in front of the class; I would sit there with sweaty palms,” she wrote.

“Looking back, I think that sports meant more to me than the next person. I needed sports more to prove to myself that I could be good at something, and I worked a little harder than I think I would have if I hadn”;t been struggling.”

She went on to discuss her experience at the Olympics.

“During my Olympic training, I was so far away from Caitlyn. I honestly just ignored my gender issues the best I could. But it was always present. ​When you suffer from gender dysphoria, it”;s not something you can take two aspirin for, get plenty of sleep, wake up the next morning, and everything”;s fine. You”;re just kind of stuck with it. I didn”;t understand it, and I didn”;t know what was going on with me. But it was also my dyslexia and gender issues that made me an Olympic champion. I channeled my struggles to drive and push me. Now, I see those issues as my gift,” she went on to say.

“When I was young, I felt I couldn”;t do anything about my gender dysphoria. Back then, I could never have envisioned a future for myself as happy as I am now. I have no regrets about my life…no matter your situation, there”;s no right or wrong way to come out. But now, I wake up in the morning, and I look in the mirror, and everything finally feels like it”;s in the right place. I”;m not struggling anymore. I”;m happy.”;

Caitlyn also recently said this about transitioning in the public eye five years ago.

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